Today is Thursday! And I just want to screaaam! I want the weekend SO BAD! Why is it so difficult this week? I am not weighing myself at all this week. F that shit. I was so tired when I got home yesterday…mmmm… Maybe I’ll go to Zumba tonight, ha yea right. But I should do a walk/run. Fatty handles.

I drink espresso with milk. I’m too lazy to froth the milk, so I won’t call it a cappuccino! I was so tired when I got home yesterday, I ate some food and fell asleep. We had to stay until 7:00 for a ballroom dance competition.  So there was no working out yesterday! 

Greek Yogurt x3 = 240 calories, Meat Loaf= 300, Pasta= 300

Umm yes not the healthiest food yesterday, oh well. Happy Tuesday!

Okay so in the passed year, I finally tied the knot and got married and I got a new teaching position. I also managed to gain 15lbs! Usually I would be really upset with myself but I’m not too worried. In November I attempted a bootcamp for about 3 months and I was really strong! I think I wrote that in an earlier post. That’s all gone now! Haha! No more strength here. But the awesome thing about fitness is that you can do it again. Goals are always achievable if you put in the time AND have the will power to say no to ice cream :) Summer is coming up soon, and I usually lose my weight during the summer because I can focus on my body and not stress out about work. However I’d like to get a head start on things, so I will be starting in March. I’ve already decreased my calories… I was eating about 1500-2000 calories a day before. Myfitness Pal tells me to eat 1200. So I’ll aim for that. Anyway I’d really like to lose, and I need to keep journaling for my own sake. It keeps me busy and calms me down before I go to work. I think I’m being observed today…I hope…I want to get it over with! Ahhh! No more cake!

Even though I use this blog for weight and fitness, I have to say I’ve gained the best 5 lbs ever eating lots of good food with my family! Caleb and I have spent four Christmas’ without family, but we were blessed to have my mom and dad spend two weeks with us this year! It was the first Christmas in a long time I didn’t cry watching Christmas Vacation, and we actually exchanged gifts on Christmas morning but that’s besides the point. The point I’m making is that I could have nothing and have my family and be happy. I know people that don’t care to have  connection with their family, or think they are above their family… I don’t understand it. Why would you want to be apart from people who would do anything for you? And I understand not all families are like this either. I know it must be hard for Caleb. His family sent him a USB stick of all (50+?) of them saying Merry Christmas. Even I cried watching it, and I didn’t even know them! Anyway I’m not going to go on and on about this. It was a great Christmas! Caleb and I are thinking about moving back to NY too. There are 2 huge problems though. A) I need a job and B) He needs a job! Ughhh this dream of moving back home seem so difficult. I will kiss the ground if I ever make it back!!! Kiss KISS kissssss!

So the holidays fuck everyone up! In a good way! My family is on the third panettone since arriving my house. My parents are fucking addicted to this shit. All it is is an Italian bread. They have different fillings…mostly raisins, fruit, or chocolate. So me and my mom have been going to Marshall’s everyday and we pick up panettone really cheap there, plus they are never picked out because Mexicans have no idea what they are! Last night we picked a chocolate one up…it was bizarre because it looked like someone had wrapped and taped it up really sloppy and stuck it on a shelf…but it was awesome! Chocolate piece and cream inside! Aghhhh!! I ate it all :( But it’s okay, IT’S CHRISTMAS!!!

On another note I wonder how many people will say their new years resolution is to “eat better” or “be healthy” and how many more people will be crowding my beloved gym? I shouldn’t be angry at them though, I should be happy…after all I have probably gained all my weight back in this last week. It’s okay though..haven’t celebrated Christmas and New Years with family in a long time! Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!

So yesterday I fixed a playlist to listen to for the treadmill, it was awesome and I was excited! So I get on a treadmill and maybe went for about 5minutes and Aaron (the lead trainer dude) comes up and waves to me to get in his FIT class. Sooo I go…. and he made us run sprints every 30 seconds for 30 minutes. I DIED! It was go go go, sprint, weights, sprint, planks..etc etc. I am pretty proud of myself by the end of the class…but I feel like such a wiener. I’m so pathetically out of shape compared to some of the other people. I know not to compare, but it’s hard not to when it feels like your heart is going to burst out of your chest and old ladies are outrunning you. Okay she wasn’t THAT old…

My knees hurt!!! What the fuuhhhhk! I asked my coach if it was normal last night and she told me no and to talk to her after class. So I stay after and she is busy with some other lady… maybe I’m just being a baby and should suck it up.

So I made a pot of sauce on Saturday and have been eating it..which is fine. However eating pasta is definitely a set back for losing weight. Fucking retarded! I tried Shirataki noodles (I may have spelled that wrong) and that fishy disgusting smell I can’t stand! It ruins the entire “pasta” experience for me, and I just end up throwing everything away. Anyone know of any low carb pastas that don’t smell like fish? Gross.

On another note I am so tired of people’s shitty gun posts on Facebook! I have one question for all you gun people…. If you could save just 1 life, wouldn’t you? Yeah, so fuck you.

So I dropped out of the weight loss & blog scene for awhile. I became bored with my “routine” work outs and too busy at my new job to care about my body. However I noticed my gym that I wasn’t attending started p90x… so I got my friend to go with me and check it out. Since that day we have signed up for basically a boot camp of classes. We are close with the trainers at the gym, built our muscle, and even dropped some pounds! Yaya!!!! My pants are not falling off… but I am much stronger. Mainly we attend a class called Grit, CX Works, RPM, and of course I still keep my Zumba. I’ve done P90x a few times, but the times are so late for it…I haven’t attended as much. Anyway… I am keeping this up until May. I’ve lost 5 lbs in about 3 weeks, and have much more energy!!!